Bukan

Bukan senang aku nk mula balik dr "0"
Bukan senang aku nk lupakan kenangan yg aku dah biasa, dari 3 tahun lepas aku buat.
Jujur sgt , aku tak mampu langsung nk mula dari bawah.
Aku cuma mampu stay.
Tapi hati aku selalu suruh pergi.
Pergi jauh dari semua.
Sebab dah sakit sgt.
Sebab dah sampai tak mampu.
Sampai aku rasa aku nk duduk dlm bilik seminggu taknak keluar.

Be Firm

"Tolonglah tetap dengan pendirian.."
Ye , dari dulu lagi.
Aku mmg tak pernah tetap dengan jeputusan aku.
Dari dulu lagi kau ada dkt blakang.
Tell me what is right.
What is wrong..
And aku perlukan kau , utk buat aku tetap.
Sbb dari dulu aku tak pernah tetap.
Itu aku , itu kelemahan aku yg kau kena accept.
Aku degil.
Tapi dari dulu kau sabar dengan aku.
Aku nk kau sentiasa sabar dengan aku.
Thanks.
Aku tak pernah sempurna tanpa kau.
Sebab 'kita' yg buat aku sempurna.

current emotion

Hey peeps.
Its kinda sad.
Idk. Just sad.
Sorry world.
Going to be okay soon.

jual mahal ?

Kau kata kau nk jual mahal walau dgn aku ?

Jangan. Jangan. Jangan.

Dengar ckp aku , jgn.

Jgn.

Last , jangan.

Dengar sekali ni je. Cukup , jgn berubah.

Kita nk happy.

Rindu kat atas tu ? 

Jgn berubah.

belajar

Duit duit duit.
Penat aku fikir pasal duit.
Pasal nk futher study.
Penat. Nk pecah otak.
Duit nya lagi mana nk cari.
Fuck.
Harap ada lah rezeki.
Problems. Banyak sgt sekarang..

Hello

14.07.14

Kita takkan boleh move on.

Honesty

14.07.14

Diyana , i jujur dkt sini.
I sakit hati , i taknak tell it on Twitter, Instagram or mana mana.
Its here. I rasa sakit sgt bila you mcm dont care bout me anymore.
Even hurt when you're not here. Its worst.
You penah rasa mcm ni before.
Yes you pernah rasa.
But , i taknak you rasa balik.
That is why i tak buat balik.
You asked me to balas balik , get up and hurt you , hit you.
But i taknak buat.
Why ?
This is because when you're mad , im not supposed to throw minyak petrol, im not supposed to be the wind yg boleh marakkan api yg tngah panas.
Apa yg i patut buat ? I kena give you space. To think bout us.
To think about our relay.
To love me back.
Supaya marah you reda.
Supaya you boleh berfikir dgn waras balik.
I know you tak rasa i try.
Tapi percayalah.
One day you akan wake up and hug me.
And akan ckp "im so dumb tak nampak apa apa yg you buat..you do everything to save our relay..to get me.."
Harap i betul.

*Diyana Zaini*

14.07.14

Baby , baby.
Move on ? Its bullshit.
Sakit sayang.
Its hurting me seeing you although just a photo with a guy.
Yes baby , its your friend.
I know its your classmates.
Tapi sakit sangat. One day you akan faham.
Harap you faham apa i rasa. Yes harap you faham.

Make an Effort to Pleased Her.

14.07.14

Hey baby , lately you mad at me like crazy.
I don't know hunny , but i think its all come from me.
Yes , but i know , deep inside your heart , there'll always be me. My name.
And you know what baby ? Everytime you say this

My heart was like skip a beat.

There's something that makes me feel that way.

I love you , i love your smile , your everything.
Here's my effort:
-Delete all the comments that might hurt you
-Delete all the picture that can turn you down
-Be myself. Actually this is me. I love everything about you.

This is me , still struggle to pleased your heart. Your soul and yes hope to see you back in my arm.

A Ring ?

Hey peeps,
A ring ?
Yes , dulu aku pernah once bg dia cincin.
Sebentuk cincin emas yang aku rasa dah cukup cantik lah tu.
Hahaha , aku pun tak tahu cantik ke tak sebenarnya. Yes im serious and yes im not playing around , kita bukan budak lagi syg.
We're all grown up. Kita boleh fikir semua.
Kita bukan kecik lagi kan ? Yes i do love you. Yes i do , i harap sangat kita dapat smpai ikatan yg sah. I nak sgt..i tak on twitter semua dah , cause it may lead to pergaduhan of us . But i on blog. What a weirddd.....
Hahaha , i syg you :*

Baby Baby

14.07.14
Baby baby baby.
Yes you hunny.
Im trying hard to getbyou back. Yes to get all your attention. Back.
Sayang , i dah delete semua comment yg akan sakitkan you. Gamba yg akan sakitkan hati you. Everything.
You ask me to give you time. Yes , take it. As much as you want. But promise me that you'll be back one day. No matter what. No matter what, I'll be there. For you.
I taknak kacau you for now cause i know you tak pernah this mad. Once youre mad like this , i must done something bad ass.
Syg dah la tu okay. Im so sorry. Im still here syg. You know where to find me.

PD with Diyana Zaini

Throwback 21.06.14

Hey guyss ,
Its like the best day ever when syuk, yaya , my baby Diyana and I go for a short vacation. For a short single trip to PD.
Sampai sana pukul 2 pagi. Bakar arang , bakar ayam..
Baby smpai tertido dalam kereta.
So , lepas bakar semua , dia suap aku makan everything dah settle semua tangan aku terkena bara arang. Damn , she wipe all the dirt and kiss my hand. Best day ever. Best day. Thanks Diy Baby.

Marah , touching dan sakit hati ?

14.07.14
Salam guys,
This time really serious.
Really am. Cause its like tak pernah pun jadi cm ni
But this time its like worst. Worst gilaaaa.
I hope she's still there for me.
Still im the one,
I promise im going to stay
Diyana zaini , Please come back. In my arm. As usual.
As good as before. I miss you sayang.

Dina

Hey guys,
Her name is Diyana.
People used to call her Dina.
Banyak kenangan manis, pahit, segalanya
But , we still together. Most of the memories was a good one.
3years and still counting. <3

Kematangan

Hello peeps,
Dah lama rasanya tak update blog ni
Berkurun.
Okay , 1st of all , aku menjalani kehidupan seperti biasa , selama 3 tahu , takda apa yg berubah.
And yeahh.
Sekarang baru aku sedar pelajaran tu penting bak kata ayah mak aku dulu.
Jgn malas belajar.  Selagi ada masa , belajarlah !